Okay, so I don't know why I'm counting down till Christmas.  This year has absolutly SUCKED, and I just want it over.  But I love seeing the looks on my brothers/sisters/little cousins faces when opening presents.  I just love it <3

SO... How has you're year been?

Like I said, mines sucked.  My husbands great grandmother died, my 18 year old cousin and his 18 year old girlfriend died, my great grandma died, and we had some friends who had passed too.  My parents are in bankruptcy, almost losing their house.  We got kicked out of their house, lived in our car.  Then in motel rooms till NYState told us we made too much money to receive help [$94/week] and kicked us to the sidewalk.  My mom is dying.  Bailey [my husband]'s parents are both dying.  Bailey lost his job in November and has yet to find another.  We are selling his car as I type, so we can pay bills.  My health is getting worse.  My best friends mother [who's like my mother], is dying as well. 

The good; We celebrated our first year anniversary.  I'm going to school to become a medical office assistant.  I got my first car.  We got our first place together.  It's our first Christmas with just us.  We are working on having a baby.  Everyone is still alive.  We are still together, even through the bad.  My best friend and I started talking again. 

The bad way out the good this year.  Hopefully 2012 will be the year that our family needs.  It seems like it can't get any worse, but I totally know it can.  And I'm thankful it hasn't. 

Is the last person you kissed a virgin?
:: Nope, I think not.

What's on your bed right now?
:: Pillows, cats, blankets, bra, remote, cell.

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
:: Christmas. New Years!

What will you be doing in three hours?
:: Sleeping.

Are you in a good mood?
:: Sure but I'm tired.

When you're angry, do you take it out on everyone else?
:: I take it out on my husband a lot, or my mom!!.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
:: Sleeping.

You're rude, aren't you?
:: No. Just very honest.

Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?
:: Lol! Yeah, Bail had his boots on andthey make him like 3 inches taller than me...

Did you have a girlfriend/boyfriend on your last birthday?
:: I had a husband.

Don't tell me lies, have you been under the influence in the past 48 hours?
:: No officle, I'm practicing :D

Does it bother you when people fight in front of you?
:: Naw, Whatever.

How's your life lately?
:: Stressful, till after Friday.

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
:: Purple, black, strips. Nuff said.

What are you currently hearing?
:: The Santa Claus.

Are you gonna get high later?
:: Oh yes, cause it's ALL I do... NOT!

Have you ever driven without a license?
:: Who hasn't?

How have you felt today?
:: Productive :D

Do you do your own laundry?
:: Duhhh... LoL!

Well, I haven't been on here since I was like 15.  WOW!  It's changed.  Most of the people that were on here then, probably aren't now.  SO!:

I wanted to have a blog site that I actually loved.  I've tried BlogSpot, they sucked.  I want people to actually read my blogs, and not have them sit on the internet for ever and no one look at them.  My blogs are normally about nothing. Normally, It's about what I do, and what I think.  What I want to rant about, and what I want others feedback on.

Like something I was thinking last night while driving around with my husband:

****Why is no one in the Christmas spirit this year?****:

I know the economy sucks.  I know a lot of people don't have jobs.  I know there's a lot of families that can't afford gifts.  But when you have little ones, wouldn't you still do anything to make them believe in the spirit of Christmas. 

Like my family... After the first of the year, my mom needs to get a pace maker put in.  So she's been very out of it this year.  My husband and I, are not having the best money situation right now.  BUT, we still had on of my dad's friends come play Santa for the little kids last night.  It's little things like that I'm talking about.  This family friend, has been playing Santa FOREVER for our family.  Normally, my dad gives him $25 and my mom bakes things for him and Mrs. Claus.  Mom didn't bake this year, although, the kids still loved it.  Hell, I'm 21 and Santa gave me a gas card [THANK YOU SANTA!!!]. 

That's what I'm talking about.  I don't have kids yet.  Once I do, I'll do anything in my power to make sure that they have the best Christmas.  Until, they tell me "Mommy, why do you have the same paper as Santa?" or "Mommy, why is your handwriting and Santa's the same?".

Input anyone?